As an active member of the York community, I enjoyed the fast-paced lifestyle that kept me busy. Until recently, my life has become rather quiet and slow. After a few months of unsuccessful job search and staying at home, I found myself adapting to this new pace and accepting this relaxed atmosphere, eventually embracing this dull, yet, peaceful life. For some reason, all those big dreams seemed somewhat courageous, but perhaps somewhat naive.
I started asking myself why we work so hard. Why do we have to try to get anything else when the status quo is sufficient? Many times have I heard from people around me that they are happy with what they already have. They are rather satisfied with a simple job, enjoying their times with family and friends, living a normal and stress-free life. It reminded me of a restaurant that I often visited when I was still in school. Although the restaurant had an ordinary decor, the food was superb.
Life could be just as good with a simple bowl of noodle every day. I’m completely convinced that if I were to give up now and forget about all my big goals, life could instantly become much easier. So why am I still trying so hard? Just as I thought I had discovered a new way of life, I found myself transforming slowly into the modern version of Macbeth; so brave and motivated, yet so wracked with my own insecurity and paranoia.
Each one of us may have different reasons to pursue our own desires; perhaps for some the answer is quite simple and obvious. But for me, I just can’t imagine myself going into that same restaurant every time for the rest of my life. It’s that simple. No matter how great things may seem at a certain point, there would always be other things that are different, things that could be better. There are still so many things we haven’t done; so much potential unrealized. So many great people that we will never be able to meet without a great story of our own. The path to the top may be tough, but to stand above all and see the world from a different perspective could be priceless. That is why I have to keep moving and keep fighting, neither for wealth nor anyone else, but to constantly strive to see and create a bigger world and a better me.
- Mark Jiao (CPPA Mentee)